Pause. Put everything on hold.
Say goodbye to where you thought you had meaning. Goodbye to your friends. Goodbye to your job. Goodbye to your support system. Goodbye to parts of your identity.
Just wait. You just have to be and do what we tell you do to. You need to go through the actions to get to the end. The end that you have been waiting for. You just need to accept what is happening around you. Your control is on pause.
If you are smart you would use this time for growth and change. You would stop feeling bad for yourself. You would take this time and learn what you want to learn. You would find ways to push yourself. It is the last time in your life that all your responsibility is to just be. You should find the things that you bring your joy. You should take this time to see where you want to go, what you want to do.
You chose to go into this path. You chose to follow your heart, and you wouldn’t stop even when it was difficult.
You know they saying, “Man plans and God laughs” – well, obviously the plans you had are not going to come. God has other ideas for you. You just need to follow. This is all part of the plan – to teach you that you have no control.
Stop all you were doing and all who you are. Your identity is no longer what you assumed it was. Maybe you’ll find a new one, you better otherwise you will just be sad and angry, and that is not a way to be in the world. Just accept what is happening.
Life is on pause. It is not stopped…just paused for the time being.