Posted in Dating, Life

I Can Do it On My Own…I am Alone…

I’ve been thinking a lot about the idea of independence. I have been living outside of my parent’s house since I was 17. I have lived in another country since 2008. I am very capably of taking care of myself.

Being someone that does not always following the mainstream, there are many times that I am on my own. I had to learn how to do things on my own. I had to learn to go places on my own. I had to learn that there was not always going to be someone there to help me.

In someways this is great- I am very independent, which is what society says is a good thing…right?

But at the same time it is very lonely. It is a world where I am on my own. That I sometimes don’t have anyone to share things wtih. That I don’t know how to ask for help, for fear that I people will look down at me or worse just not do it, and so once again I am on my own, being let down by the people around me.

I think that finding the balance between being independent and alone is one of the most difficult…I hope that I can find that balance soon.

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I am prone to overthinking and not to sharing. I decided to start writing and see what happens. So here are some stories and life situations (sometimes words of Torah) of a 30 something single woman, who happens to be a rabbi (received ordination in 2017- so there are posts of what that experience was like), will be working as a chaplain (and worked for years with older adults), is regularly asked what city she is located in (started the blog while living in Israel, found herself working in Australia, and will be in New York for at least a year), and is just trying to figure out her place in the world.

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